Been so long

Sorry it's been so long since I've posted. The Lamictal seems to be helping, mostly. I think I might need to go up a bit but will discuss that at the next med appointment. Still having bad dreams, so they prescribed Prazosin. It's a blood pressure drug in higher doses, but is also for nightmares caused by PTSD. I never considered that I might have PTSD until they prescribed it. And in thinking about it, I just might. I have a real problem being alone for any extended amount of time. When I was a very little child (like 3 or 4), I remember sitting in my highchair at my grandparents' table and them telling me my mother wasn't coming back. I remember it hit me like a damn rock and I screamed and cried like the world was ending, even after my grandmother slapped me across the face. Then, various boyfriends and friends left me, and even the person I thought was the love of my life at the time. So yeah, I may just have PTSD, about that and the mental abuse and being molested twice as a child. I don't know. Something to think about, alone of course, since my therapist said I no longer needed her. I will try to post more often, but no promises. :)