Today is not going well at all. Feeling very lonely and sick of fighting with my husband, who is off in Colorado with the kids having a good time visiting family while I sit here and cry. All fucking day. I stayed home because I have to feed our animals, walk our dogs 3x a day, and handle the chickens. I swear, I think if I didn't have those responsibilities today I think I would end it. Tired of hurting, and just read on a few websites about relationship anxiety that in a nutshell, it's all my fault. Always. Everyone can sit back and blame the crazy person. So tired, and so in pain. Edited to mark dog walking as 3x a day. Can't even think straight.